I am Gods Slut
With every footstep I press into God
And God reaches up to me
To hold my cracked and dusty feet
God is the path that longs for me
I am God’s Slut
In the juice of fruit
Dripping down my chin
In every lilac bud and rotten meat and
salt of ocean air
I am there
Plunging naked breast
And hungry mouth
Into every nook and cranny
Inhaling loves most tender secrets
Drinking in God
As God drinks me
I am God’s Slut
Down in the trash yards
With twinkling stars of glass shards and
Crows with blood soaked wings
In the well kept temples
Filled with incense and song
In the light soaked hilltop meadow
At dawn
In the crowded markets humming with
Vast hunger and greed
I am stripping naked
On my knees
Prostrating myself
Before God
I am God’s Slut
I am swimming in the swollen tides
Of Gods overflowing womb
I am laying my head in his lap
Whispering incantations of magic
And chanting prayers of longing
To God’s multitude of faces
Every where I go
I throw myself at Gods feet
I offer my tongue and word and lip and belly
I offer throat and nipple and ear
I offer skin and heart and failure
I offer even what I do not have to give
To God’s endless alter
There is never enough God for me
I am God’s Slut
I cannot help but
Spread myself open before God
In the broken houses
Of my desecrated dreams
Even the damp and musty floorboards
Smell of God
With my rivals and my enemies
With my lovers and my friends
In the shaky hands of beggars
In the laughter of children
And the lustful eyes of Men
I am always with my Beloved
Even in my illusions
I am chasing God’s
Mysterious shadow
I am God’s Slut
There is no where I will not go to
Look for my Beloved
When I am ashamed
God drapes me in his dark eyes
When my heart is broken
God is the knife in my chest
When I am silent I am only singing
Love songs to God
Everywhere that I go is Gods temple
In every thing that I do
I am riding Gods body
I am always fulfilled
And never satisfied
With how much God I can take
Into me
I am God’s Slut
When I fall down
I fall into God
When I limp and when I dance
When I rage and I rejoice
It is Gods breath I ride
Into that wild trembling grace
Every movement in my chest
Is only Gods sublime embrace
I am Gods Slut
When my bones ache with tiredness
God is penetrating me
When I lose my mind in confusion
God is ravishing me
In the wind God kisses me
In the rain God baptizes me
When I gaze at the moon
God gazes back at me
When I light a candle
God warms me
When I am in hiding
God mourns me
And when God spits
Into my mouth
I drink it gladly
I am God’s slut
I am inhaling Gods scent
Tasting Gods Tongue
Caressing Gods Body
I am always walking towards him
I am God’s Slut
There is no where I will not
Make love to God
I seduce God
And God seduces me
God hides from me
And in my yearning
God appears to me again
In the traffic jam
I lock eyes with strangers
And God comes rushing in
My mouth is always reaching
Aching for some word of praise
Worthy of being spoken
For this nameless, senseless
Shameless devotion
I am God’s Slut
I am dripping for God
Searching for God
Clawing my way into
The arms of God
Inhaling God in every breath
And when I tear down the walls
That keep God separate from me
I realize God is the axe I swing
And when my hands bleed
Gods blood
I offer God the cup
Of wine
I am God’s Slut
In the pause between the breath
In the space between my heartbeats
Between
What is known
And not known
God takes me down
To ravish me
Into that grief soaked ecstasy
That only Fools for Love
Can be
I am God’s Slut
Begging God
To have his way with me
-Maya Luna